I´ve been changing my mind

"The motive of all of it was loneliness, 

All the panic encounters and despair 

Were bred in fear of the lost night, apart, outlined by pain, alone. 

Promiscuous as mercy. 

Fear-led and led again to fear 

At evening toward the cave where part fire, 

part pity lived in that voluptuousness 

To end one and begin another loneliness. 

This is the most intolerable motive: this must be given back to life again, 

Made superhuman, made human, out of pain 

Turned to the personal, the pure release: The rings of Plato and Homer's golden chain or Lenin with his cry of Dare We Win"

 - Muriel Rukeyser's